Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Frustrations

What's the point of telling him stuff when all I get in the end is non-stop nagging? It's irritating. I might as well say nothing at all.

Argh screw this.

Failed SOC again. Stupid slippery swing trainer. Gah.

R.A. sian-ed out at 7/08/2009 11:23:00 PM

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Only 3 days this week!

I think I've lost interest.

Or rather, I lost the drive to pursue this any further.

Isn't it more exciting to be a free-roamer?

Sigh.

BLOCK LEAVE: 9 July to 15 July. ANYONE HAS IDEAS OF WHAT I CAN DO DURING THIS TIME?

R.A. sian-ed out at 7/05/2009 04:29:00 PM

Monday, June 29, 2009

A post from camp!

1 more hour to lights out. IPPT tomorrow. Pray to God that this time I won't mess up my chances at silver.

If I do 8 chin-ups tomorrow, I swear I'll run my lungs out.

But hell, it's still a looong way to go to gold...

It's ironic how the more I understand my feelings, the more it begins to fade. I guess logic has a cruel way of dissolving one's wonderland away.

R.A. sian-ed out at 6/29/2009 08:57:00 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Back to camp. Again.

Booking in. Again.

AHH SO SIAN.

I just hope that the new life as a pro term cadet will prove to be far more interesting than service term...

R.A. sian-ed out at 6/28/2009 05:50:00 PM

Oh man...

The last book out felt so different. The group was small, unfamiliar, restrained. The songs were the same, but had a different air about it. The march was the same, yet the steps didn't feel as light and refreshing as the ones weeks before. The road ahead remains the same as that of countless batches before, yet stays unfamiliar and ever-daunting. The familiar faces, now all gone, to be replaced by nameless figures that require a whole new approach. A core remains, but nothing to re-create the magic that once lingered in the body.

Welcome to pro term, gents. 21 weeks of pure pain.

R.A. sian-ed out at 6/28/2009 12:27:00 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Heading for the purple light in the valley

She wears it for the soldier who wears the green beret...

Perhaps it was fated to be as such. No matter. I will endure, and stand proud after another 6 months.

24 more weeks... *groans*

I swear I've really been down on my luck for the past few days. Just hoping that we would not hit the worst case scenario...

R.A. sian-ed out at 6/24/2009 05:17:00 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

1 more week in Service term

Social night this wednesday.

Brunei next Sunday (if I go support arms).

IPPT tomorrow... *gulps*

Somehow I am suddenly wishing that I took NUS medicine and disrupted NS, but oh well, I guess this is the wrong motivation to study the course anyway. Come to think of it, I would be flabbergasted if there had been any cadets who took medicine for the sake of disruption. It's just... stupid and childish.

Never mind. I shall not read too much.

Book in at 2300. xD

R.A. sian-ed out at 6/21/2009 08:57:00 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Becoming seniors

OK, Scorpion King is over. Glad it is.

1 more week till end of Service Term...

1 more IPPT - that will make or break me.

Just hope I don't get dropped for some stupid reason.

Posting out on Monday...

"Speed through Skills!" *dreams*

Ah whatever.

I'll take Ros's advice and post song lyrics on my blog to keep it "alive".

LINKIN PARK - LEAVE OUT ALL THE REST

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are